PrettyBetty

so, i’m entering day 4 of the vegan diet and it’s going well so far.  i worked out monday and yesterday, with another workout scheduled today and tomorrow.  think i’ll throw in some jazzercise tonight and hit yoga tomorrow afternoon as well.  i love yoga and could really go for a class right about now.

today is kind of a blah day for me.  not so much on the diet/workout end of things, but just personally.  it’s like the weather reflects my mood…overcast.  ”they” say that you have to truly love yourself before someone can really love you.  how exactly am i supposed to completely love myself, when i am my worst critic?  i know i have great qualities, but i sometimes think that my being overweight overshadows all the good that i am or do.   i know i’m taking on the challenge of losing weight and getting in shape.  i know that’s good for me.  it just seems like a long road and i fear i’ll run out of gas.

jillian michaels talked about changing your attitude and stop being self-defeatist.  i am trying to no longer say “i am fat” and instead say “i am doing what it takes each day to be the healthiest person i can be.” i haven’t been in the dressing room since i started with that new affirmation, but i’ll try to remember that when i am.  it’s the dressing room where i ususally utter those three little words most. 

 like i said, it’s a weird, blah day.  workout will help.  eating a healthy lunch will help.

sometimes it’s just hard.